What I’m Leaving Behind (and What I’m Finally Showing Up For)
Let’s be real.
2025 was A Lot™.
And before I share the shiny parts, I need to talk about the parts that weren’t. The stuff I’m not dragging into 2026.
Things I’m Leaving Behind:
Trying to be someone I’m not.
No one asked me to change. No one told me I wasn’t enough.
But I still found myself trying to match the tone, pace, strategy of people I admire.
Even when it gave me the ick. Even when it felt like I was putting on clothes that didn’t fit.
Not practicing what I preach.
I literally teach creative embodiment—and I let my own practices slide into the background.
I filled my calendar with “good things” and left the thing that keeps me grounded off the list.
Then wondered why I felt disconnected.
Cue imposter syndrome, showing up like clockwork.
Saying yes to everything.
Even the aligned stuff. Even the exciting stuff.
Because I forgot that too much good can still be too much.
And I don't want to keep burning myself out in the name of being helpful, available, or “on it.”
And yet—amid all that...
Things I’m Proud Of:
I fell hard for Pilates.
One class turned into a mat certification. Then Reformer 1, 2, and 3.
Because apparently I don’t do casual. And honestly? Movement changed me. It brought me back to myself in ways I didn’t see coming.
I held so many meaningful 1:1 mentorships and coaching sessions, with the support of clinical supervision that helped me trust the hell out of what I offer.
One of my Women’s Creative Connection groups sold out.
I guest-hosted Behind the Bluff—three times. (I was supposed to be “just a guest,” but life had other ideas.)
I joined a book collaboration with some incredible women—and didn’t tell anyone until it was published.
Old me would’ve talked about it for four years before doing it.
This year? I let it unfold. Quietly. Fully.
And the biggest physical milestone?
We’re finally building our damn house.
After over 3 years of delays, we’re doing it. The foundation is literally being poured in the next few days! EEK!
But honestly, the biggest shift?
I’m finally going all in on myself.
Creative Current isn’t something I’m trying anymore.
It’s not an idea on a shelf. It’s alive. I’m in it. Fully.
The podcast is launching.
1:1 coaching/mentorships is deepening.
Memberships and group experiences are unfolding.
All the stuff I’ve talked about for years... I’m actually showing up for.
It feels terrifying. And overdue. And exactly right.
Wanna do a ritual with me?
Here’s something simple but powerful:
Two pages.
One labeled “What I’m Leaving.”
The other, “What I’m Carrying.”
No rules.
Write, paint, collage, scribble, cry.
Get honest. Get messy.
Let your creative self name what’s ready to go—and what’s ready to grow.
You don’t have to do it perfectly.
Just do it with heart.
If you’re feeling the pull to work together 1:1—my January spots are open.
This is deep, embodied coaching for creatives, feelers, seekers, humans who want to come back to their own damn voice.
No fixing. No formula. Just space to explore and root into what’s already wise inside you.
Here’s to not faking it.
Here’s to actually showing up.
Here’s to building (literally and metaphorically) something real.
With love and slightly ink-stained hands,
Jess
